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Its almost four am and I just got home from Faye’s bridal shower - a very tamed one if I may say so. My "other" bridal showers involved strippers and games that you’d rather erase from your own memory. This one was simply a night with the girls, a devil may care how much we drink and dance sort of stint. I was really happy that my best gal had a great time on her last weekend being single but at the same time, the event got me thinking…

Who will throw my shower and who’s gonna be there? Almost all my best girl friends are married or soon to tie the knot. Not that I envy them, but it makes me wonder, when it’s my turn- will there be any more single ladies left to party with me? Or would they all be too busy taking care of their babies and hubbies? Will I have anyone left to drag around to bridal fairs ( not that I have to ) and lingerie shopping?

I know my girlfriends are never gonna dessert me, but over the years, I’ve noticed that my gimmicks are majorly occupied by friends from the opposite sex. One by one it gets more and more difficult to get a girl to hang out with. Tonight made me want more of those bar moments - where all of menkind is ogling at the group of hot women I entered the bar with. Not that getting picked up is a joy, but I’m a bit tired of being my boys’ wing man. I miss getting dressed up, knowing that my friends were dolling up as much as i was. When you hang out with boys, no matter how hot you look, no man will dare get near you. 

When I turned 30 a few weeks ago, someone asked me how i felt in general. And with a far away gaze, I answered - happy and quiet. Which is a contradiction to my life last year. No more chaotic schedules ( I am a bum ), no more two dates in one day ( hehe-lunch and dinner ), no more booty calls ( they call, I hang up ), no more cant decide who to go out with that night, and no more hating myself for staying home on a friday. Allthough I still love shopping for make-up, theyre simply for my narcissistic pleasure, and not meant for the next new guy in my life. I guess when you stop pondering where everythings going and merely accept that God has a plan, indeed, you sort of look for nothing more.

But Im still worried that no one will throw me a bridal shower. hahaha
Cheers to you Faye, Anna, Gelza, Phoebe, Chuchay and Rain ( resident gayfriend ), and Ryu ( favorite bartender ). may we not run out of reasons to hang out.

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